I have epically failed at trying to be Harley and do the Mod dress up for the photoshoot. Really I don't care though. I have no intentions of playing the role when I'm so no true to the character. Never have, never will.

I should be ecstatic. I did a photography job for my boss' daughter's bat-mitzvah party on friday... need I mention it was 60 plus kids with a DJ, MC, and three dancers. INSANITY. This one lady who was setting up the room and everything noticed my drive that night and how I was none stop running around taking photos. She wants to get me involved with some major big time photographers where I live. Happy thing right... as much as I am thrilled to boost my stepping into the REAL photography world, it's not making as happy as it should right now. Just too much other crap in my life that's just making my depression so damn deep.

I honestly feel like I'm depression quick sand. The more I try to get myself out of it, then more I sink and the stronger it gets. I'm stuck no matter what I do.

My one dog is doing really badly right now. I've had her for nine years, she's my best friend, and I am honestly going to be more lost without her. That day is coming really soon I think too. :/

The criticism I get in my house is NOT helping me either. My family sure doesn't know how to bring someone up when they are down for sure.

Oh! and my neighborhood got hit with people robbing insides of cars. Lovely feeling to wake up and see your stuff thrown about your car.

Something that has gone and ruined my mood for awhile; Batman: Arkham Asylum doesn't like my computer. Me not thinking correctly didn't see if it would work right on my computer. Start to play it, Joker is getting taken back into the Asylum and FROZEN. Eidos says it's my sound card. Did a requirement test. No, not my sound card, Eidos, myh GRAPHIC card. $50 wasted. If someone wants the game hit me up I'll give you the link I bought it from and the CD registration number. Might as well be put into use for someone. Yeah I learned my lesson, first think before buying a game and check if it will work. Second, edios is stupid as hell.

Exhaustion has gotten to me good and well. Two jobs and getting maybe one day off a week. It's just awesome. Honestly I don't remember the last time I've actually felt rested. Between always on the go and my depression I'm not sure what's keeping me up the most.

Ugh. This is a darn depressing journal. Sorry for that.

My page will probably not be updated with any work for awhile. I just can't really find anything to drive me to do photography right now.